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有朋友仔問我點解近日無mud Blog，唔係我唔想寫或無野寫，而是真係沒時間唷！

忙得來又跟天父keeping in pace, 所以也不算drain out ... 只是要更好好protect安靜的時間 ...

但係真係有點少少迷路的感受唷，因為我的degree好像永遠都不回完的樣子，

有時想，不完成也沒什麼大不了 ...

如果這是天父對我說的，我就不會有那些不安 ...

可是，我心底一早就知道這卻不是天父的聲音吧 ...

再加上我不停convince自己相信要放棄時，

那些迷失感就在此產生了 ...

天父又給我遇見好幾個counsel過好一段長日子的clients，

見到她們生活也比已前好時，也對我是一些無聲的鼓勵，

我同學生談天時，也有同一的感覺唷 ...

自2006年因為身體不好而停下讀書的momentum，

我就開始掙扎。

前晚，也跟Ken說到流淚 ... 

問了我很多問題，

也勁challenge我從前有那份幹勁和耐力，

我好奇怪他點知以前的我是如何，

因為我倆相識才一年半多，

他的observation and intuition也比我強吧。

And now ... he became my coach to finish this part of the race ...

要去朋友仔的婚禮了 ...

再寫 ...

A pray for simplicity

Lord,

I praise you for how simple your love is for me. 

I thank you for things and tribulations that you allowed in my life. 

Hurdles from yesterday became strength for me today ...

Father, I beg for your enduring strength in my to finish off my degree which I dedicate of your use. If this is still the path you want me to walk on, please anchor your affirmation in me. "The song' came to me in just perfect timing again ... 

as I grow, you taught me how to choose, how to make choices that pleases your own eyes. Father, I pray for a heart of simplicity in me so that I can completely surrender myself in your Hands and abandon my dreams and desire in You. 

Grant me a simple heart trusting that my today and my tomorrow are in Your creative hands. 

Grant me a simple heart surrender ability and talents to you when I feel most capable.

Grant me a simple heart trusting that you creativity will lead me out of the maze when I feel like being trapped in one.

As I am learning to keep in pace with Your spirit, grant me a simple heart to love and to follow You ... 

Grant me a simple trust in You when things just don't make sense in my limited knowledge. 

Dad ... may my soul dwells in You ...

Love, Long 

The hope that saved me

Life is filled with things that carry us away from fully abandoning and surrendering ourselves to Our Saviour. The road is narrow ...

At times, we hold onto our sense of self so tight that we worship our needs and that 

At times, we are overwhelmed with detours that jolt our faith in Christ and filled our soul with doubts.  

When the slightest sense of hopelessness knocks at our hearts, we easily let it into our hearts ...

that's when it starts to turn corrosive that eats up our sense of Hope ...

How easily we choose to forget about the Hope that He has installed for us through the Salvation ...

His hope saved and delivered me ...

Elpis ...

... is the greek word for HOPE. (as in 1 Peter 1:3 - "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living HOPE through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade - kept in heaven for you.) 

... Nothing is more strengthening than knowing that there's is a hope in the midst of suffering and hardships. Our Hope is rooted in Christ ... and not myself ... and that changed my life. 

... this is still the word in my heart, if one day God allows my dream to come into live. 

Thanks to lo-sai brother for this song ... tears washed away the sense of hopelessness ... and slowly filled with a sense of strength that calms my heart.

"There is a hope that burns within my heart,

that gives me strength for ev'ry passing day;

a glimpse of glory now revealed in meager part,

yet drives all doubt away:

I stand in Christ, with sins forgiv'n;

and Christ in me, the hope of heav'n!

My highest calling and my deepest joy,

to make His will my home."

"There is a hope that lifts my weary head,

a consolation strong against despair,

That when the world has plunged me in its deepest pit,

I find the Saviour there!

Through present suff'rings, future's fear, 

He whispers "courage" in my ear.

For I am safe in everlasting arms,

And they will lead me home."

"There is a hope that stands the test of time,

That lifts my eyes beyond the beck'ning grave,

To see the matchless beauty of a day divine

when I behold His face!

When suff'rings cease and sorrows die,

And ev'ry longing satisfied.

Then joy unspeakable will flood my soul,

For I am truly home."

被hut-chiu困擾

四點多了，我大半晚給敏感大爺弄醒！

好辛苦！

救命！

在Vancouver的Calgary

原來，有時掛住一個地方可以是因為掛住那地方的人 ...

可能，我掛住Calgary也是如此 ...

Calgary的團契導師，牧師和師母這幾天也來了Vancouver同出席一個婚禮。

謝謝他們帶來的鼓勵和關心。

他們也一直為近日我與天父的drama祈禱，也交換了眼淚唷！

Really treasure these friendships in the body of Christ!! 

其實，天父給了我和Ken有好多這些amazing people in our lives! 

We are loved and cared for! :)

Pray that we both can also be companions for you guys in our journey with 天父爸爸唷！

這一切不是必然，卻是恩典唷！

好熱

真的好熱，幸好今年家中添置了一台新fan ...

近日，太多又新又奇的事情發生了，

我覺得有點耗盡了我的brain power去應對，

令我這幾個星期也用我的「後備電」生活。

我想安靜下來也不能 ... 未能安靜對我而言卻是大忌也！

前幾日，Ken一心帶我到海灘走走，點知，我們的敏感一同發作，我們走都走唔切 ... 

天父天父，求你帶我靜靜的到你面前 ... please, baba!

Missing pieces

There was a piece of me went missing for 24 years ...

A piece that was meant to be where I find could my security ...

A piece that was meant to be where I could put my trust in ...

That piece was gone due to some wrongful decisions in his life ...

There were days as I was growing up that I wanted to look for that missing piece ... 

but I didn't have the courage.

There were days when I grieved for the loss for that piece ...

Years gone by without that missing piece ...

A picture with a missing piece started to become the perfect picture ...

God transformed my life through that empty spot in my life ... a place deeply yearning for love, for acceptance, for loyalty, for protection ...

It was through that missing piece that I humble come before our Lord ...

As God knows that I am above to step into another stage of my life and journey with Him ... 

He simply knows I needed to mend that missing piece ...

He made things happened that way He wanted to ...

Streams of healing tears mended the wounds ...

As I reflect, how much I thank the important people in my life who raised me up with extraordinary love and patience ... 

Although one part of me was missing ... 

but God gave me so much more ...

'cause He loves me and He knows what I needed to walk through those growing years ... 

This has been a Psalm that comforts me ...

Psalms 146:8-10

"... the Lord gives sight to the blind, 

the Lord lifts up those who are bowed down, 

the Lord loves the righteous. 

The Lord watches over the alien and sustains the fatherless and the widow, 

but he frustrates the ways of the wicked. 

The Lord reign forever, you God, O Zion, 

for all generations. 

Praise the Lord." 

If Our Lord desires to use His story through me, I am ready ... just show me the way to reach out to the wounded ... My Father, hear my prayers ... 

Thank you to all my angels for prayers and care ... love you all :) 

Our God is in control!