Long: I am quite busy, why don't I touch base with you in a few weeks?
Kid: (nodding, sad) ... will you abandon me again like I was once abandoned?
Long: I will not abandon you, but I am tired! you know ... I am running low in energy and I need to be rejuvenated in order to bring you comforts.
Kid: I understand, I am a good kid and I will wait for you ... but ... just don't abandon me!
Long: You got my words! I will be back ... wait for me ...
days had gone by ...
weeks had gone by ...
The kid waited ...
Kid: (sobbing) Long ... I need help ...
Long: (sobbing) Yes, I still remember ... I didn't forget about you ... I am running out of energy too ... I am sorry, I have to admit that there was a moment or two that I wanted to leave you behind just as I did for years, but Our Daddy just reminded me not to leave you alone again ... so I ran back to come to you again ...
Kid: (sobbing) Thank you ...
Long: (Embracing the kid in her arms) I won't leave you like I did before, I will be there even when I have no solutions for you ... for my Lord embraced me in His arms ...
(Long extended her arms for the little kid)
Kid: (sobbing in Long's arms) Thank you ...
Long: I wished I could have done more ... I offer to you my presence just as how our 天父爸爸held me tight in His arms when I was in desperation ...
Kid: I am very tired ... I am scared ... I am feeling hurt ...
Long: I hear you ... why don't I take you out for a walk?
Kid: en ... just don't leave me ...
Long: I wont! I promise!
Long took the kid to Jericho Beach where she called that her sacred place ...
It was a little chilly, the sun blazed its way onto the sandy beach ...
The air was refreshing and layered with a very thin layer of fog in it ...
Long: my dear, let's tell our 天父爸爸 everything ...
Kid: ... will He listen?
Long: Yes!!
On and on, they went on telling Our Lord about every single thoughts and tears ...
God: I heard you both! I am here ... looking up the mountains ... You lift up your eyes to the hills where does your help come from? Your help comes from Me, the Maker of heaven and earth. I will not let your foot slip - I who watch over you will not slumber; indeed, I who watch over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. I, The Lord, watches over you, I am your shade at your right hand; the sun will not harm you by day, nor the moon by night. I, The Lord, will keep you from all harm - I will watch over your life; I will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore.
Kid: Are you The Lord that Long told me about?
God: Yes. I have known you for a long time.
Kid: REALLY? How did you know me?
God: I created you!
Kid: REALLY? Why did you create me?
God: I created you out of my love for you ...
Kid: but ...
God: I knew what you wanted to ask ... do you want to hear my answer?
Kid: en ...
God: I want to lavish my love on you ... you were never a mistake ... I will use your tears to lavish my love and comfort upon those little wounded kids around you.
Kid: Hey God, you are using BIG words ... but ... I think I understand what you mean ...
God (smiled and knock on the kid's head): Silly! but I DO love you ... I won't leave you ...
Long: Thank you, 天父爸爸！
Long took the kid to pet shop to bookstore to have moments on bonding and comforts. The baby fluffy kitten was so playful ...
As the sun calling it the day, Long received a comforting hug from a buddy with bubble tea in her hands. God is real ... He sent angel over in times of need the most ...
I squeezed out my last bit of energy for the Jubilization. I broke down literally on my ride home after the late night radio show. Genuine friendships DO walk a long way, thanks for the late-night comforts! We witness how each other struggled and wept for the past 10 years ... and thanks for reminding me that I am actually on the path of recovery. I knew all these by heart, but it was just soothing to hear those words from the mouth of a dear friend.
The emotionally draining weekend is over finally! ... recuperating from exhaustion ...
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