Wednesday, September 26, 2007

中醫的鼓勵



真是喜歡我的中醫師.每次見她,她也很有耐性的給我解釋進展!其實,我也覺得個人暖了又精神了很多。
今天,當她幫我把把脈時,她微微的笑說:

醫: 唷!我真的鄧你好高興!

... 我心想,唔通好像古裝劇 ... "你有喜脈“ (CHOY!! NO WAY!)

... 心又想,唔通你又知我拍拖又恭喜我? (haha ... no way too!!)

醫: ... 我鄧你的脈好高興 ... 好了很多,我也不想見得你那麼密!再忍一忍吧!

嘩,她輕輕一句鼓勵叫我心暢快!!
我不知幾辛苦不吃妹妹吃的紅豆雪條,不吃Jodie吃的湯圓紅豆冰, green tea ice cream ...又很少喝凍奶茶,OT, 豆漿 ...etc etc
可以身體好一點,我可以再努力!

原來一句鼓勵的說話真的好重要,可能是在我們眼中的小小進步和改變,已是別人付上很多勞苦了!
有時,見到我的clients好努力面對自己的黑暗,我也忍不住鼓勵他們,因為我知道是很難走!

Monday, September 24, 2007

Isaiah 43



God's words are forever faithful. May our Lord's promise dwell in my soul ...!
Thanks for bible studying this with me ... this comes in the perfect timing ...
(I have a lot of stories up in my mind lately, I hope I get the time to write them all down)

1 But now, this is what the LORD says—
he who created you, O Jacob,
he who formed you, O Israel:
"Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have summoned you by name; you are mine.
2 When you pass through the waters,
I will be with you;
and when you pass through the rivers,
they will not sweep over you.
When you walk through the fire,
you will not be burned;
the flames will not set you ablaze.

3 For I am the LORD, your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I give Egypt for your ransom,
Cush and Seba in your stead.

4 Since you are precious and honored in my sight,
and because I love you,
I will give men in exchange for you,
and people in exchange for your life.

5 Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
I will bring your children from the east
and gather you from the west.

6 I will say to the north, 'Give them up!'
and to the south, 'Do not hold them back.'
Bring my sons from afar
and my daughters from the ends of the earth-

7 everyone who is called by my name,
whom I created for my glory,
whom I formed and made."

8 Lead out those who have eyes but are blind,
who have ears but are deaf.

9 All the nations gather together
and the peoples assemble.
Which of them foretold this
and proclaimed to us the former things?
Let them bring in their witnesses to prove they were right,
so that others may hear and say, "It is true."

10 "You are my witnesses," declares the LORD,
"and my servant whom I have chosen,
so that you may know and believe me
and understand that I am he.
Before me no god was formed,
nor will there be one after me.

11 I, even I, am the LORD,
and apart from me there is no savior.

12 I have revealed and saved and proclaimed—
I, and not some foreign god among you.
You are my witnesses," declares the LORD, "that I am God.

13 Yes, and from ancient days I am he.
No one can deliver out of my hand.
When I act, who can reverse it?"

14 This is what the LORD says—
your Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel:
"For your sake I will send to Babylon
and bring down as fugitives all the Babylonians,
in the ships in which they took pride.
15 I am the LORD, your Holy One,
Israel's Creator, your King."

16 This is what the LORD says—
he who made a way through the sea,
a path through the mighty waters,

17 who drew out the chariots and horses,
the army and reinforcements together,
and they lay there, never to rise again,
extinguished, snuffed out like a wick:

18 "Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.

19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland.

20 The wild animals honor me,
the jackals and the owls,
because I provide water in the desert
and streams in the wasteland,
to give drink to my people, my chosen,

21 the people I formed for myself
that they may proclaim my praise.

22 "Yet you have not called upon me, O Jacob,
you have not wearied yourselves for me, O Israel.

23 You have not brought me sheep for burnt offerings,
nor honored me with your sacrifices.
I have not burdened you with grain offerings
nor wearied you with demands for incense.

24 You have not bought any fragrant calamus for me,
or lavished on me the fat of your sacrifices.
But you have burdened me with your sins
and wearied me with your offenses.

25 "I, even I, am he who blots out
your transgressions, for my own sake,
and remembers your sins no more.

26 Review the past for me,
let us argue the matter together;
state the case for your innocence.

27 Your first father sinned;
your spokesmen rebelled against me.

28 So I will disgrace the dignitaries of your temple,
and I will consign Jacob to destruction
and Israel to scorn.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

多謝


這兩天聽到「恭喜」這兩個字多得猶如一個老人家擺九十歲大壽一樣!

多謝

戰兢 ... 叫我更依賴神
平安 ... 叫我知到天父與我們同在
感恩 ... 因為多了位好好同路人

又是一個新旅程了 ...

Friday, September 14, 2007

我愛上班


「我愛上班」這四個字對某些人來說比「我愛你」更難說出口。

要說「我愛上班」比「我愛這份工」更難!因為,要愛上班就是不單愛這份工,更要愛一同上班的同事們和clientele (i.e. 我們所愛的學生們)!有一班好同事亦好不容易,因為不是一個人努力所得來的成果,而是我們能夠毫無保留地彼此分擔生命中的事情,又一同有同一夢想去愛上帝所愛的人!不是我們沒有遭遇困難,反倒多的是,而是我們肯一同承擔,一同守望,一同掙扎!我卻為每個人的不足之處感恩,因為我們的天父知道我們有不足,我們才在一同工作上更看見我們如何更互相保足!

I humbly come before the Lord and said a prayer (as I was half dipped into the Jaccuzi in our Whistler Retreat with a sip of Jackson Trigg in my mouth) ...
"My Almighty Father, I continueously give thanks to the fellowship in our team for you put all of us together for purpose. I am thankful for our imperfectness for we experience you in our shortcomings. Lord, each one of us is unique and I pray that you teach us to have an open and a sensitive heart for your voice. Teach us to love each young life you bring to us. Mold us as we serve your, mold us to be Godly servants who go after your own heart .... .... ... " ... on and on I pray for each one of them ... What a blessing to pray for people ...

Friday, September 7, 2007

Fear of change


Few days ago that I talked to a good buddy. Our conversation reminded me of a little book I once read on the plane ...

“… I have accepted fear as a part of life – specifically the fear of change … I have gone ahead despite the pounding in the heart that says: turn back …” Erica Jong

We are all afraid of change. Change evokes the fear of loss and abandonment, a sense of insecurity and chaos. We fear we will regret our decision to change and long for the way our life used to be. But a funny thing happens as we change: the things we cherished so much before are often overshadowed by our new life; our losses are soon forgotten as we gain new insights and new ways of living and as we let new people into our life. Instead of looking back on our old life longingly, we usually end up appreciating the positive differences the change has made.

Since we can’t see ahead to envision all the positive changes our decision to leave will make in our life, we will need to rely on a certain amount of faith ... and in fact .... a huge amount of faith in our Lord.

Thursday, September 6, 2007

He dwells in me ...

Psalms 8
1 O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!
You have set your glory
above the heavens.
2 From the lips of children and infants
you have ordained praise [b]
because of your enemies,
to silence the foe and the avenger.

3 When I consider your heavens,
the work of your fingers,
the moon and the stars,
which you have set in place,

4 what is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?

5 You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings [c]
and crowned him with glory and honor.

6 You made him ruler over the works of your hands;
you put everything under his feet:

7 all flocks and herds,
and the beasts of the field,

8 the birds of the air,
and the fish of the sea,
all that swim the paths of the seas.

9 O LORD, our Lord,
how majestic is your name in all the earth!

O Lord, my God ... You made us to be close to your very own heart. We are utterly precious in your sight for you made us to just be a little little lower than heaven beings. Nothing in our lives that is out of your reach. We are securely anchored in your grace and prescence. You ordained us to govern the world that you have created for us. How precious we are in your sight? How precious our indentities are in your plans? Lord, teach me to be someone who goes after your very own heart ...

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

"The Sacred Romance"


"The Sacred Romance - Drawing closer to the heart of God" is the title of a book Dr. Don asked us to read in my Counselling foundation class back in 2005. This book title kept lingering in my herat for that whole day. Went home, picked it up, read a few pages and found that I have such a thirst to draw closer to God.

After work, I drove to my little sacred place to sit and to pray. "Ambivalence" depicts my chains of emotions and thoughts ...
Hope vs. Fear
Joy vs. Fear
Living at present vs. living in the past
I know the ultimate result, but the process of walking towards that is filled with uncertainity, unknowns, self-doubts ... I have learn to lean on God in this 'dangling' moments, as I know God will swing with me. I feel peaceful even when I am yet to anchor. It's ok ... "as long as God is here, I am fine with it", a phrase that carried me through those gloomy days last year.

In fact, I am more joyful than ever ... that means God is going to bring me to another journey to surf with Him.

This 'collaboration' is so huge ... but God is in control.

I appreciate the room that I have been given before the 'collaboration' takes place.

I saw on the bench in my little sacred place and started my conversation with God ...
Long: Dad, it's me again ...
God: I have been waiting for you. Come to me and you shall have peace ...
Long: Yes, dad. I feel so speechless ... running out of words ... but here I am ...
God: ... freely ... fresh ... healthy ... pleasing my eye ... I called ... (these are the big words in His response)
Long: yes Lord, I knew it ... but I am scared ...
God: Remember this bench? You came to sat on these benches around you so often last year. I was there ... I am here ... I will be here! I am ready to bring you close to my heart for another journey ... come with me ...
Long: Dad, help me to follow you ... teach me to go after your own heart ...! May your peace dwell in my soul as I am learning to step forward.
God: Be still ... for I am your God. You know me well ... you know I won't leave you or abandon you ...! I am here, my girl ...

A seal suddenly peaked its head up from the water ... flapping its tail ... diving back in ....! The seal was enjoying freely for where God placed it to be. Back and forth, it swam, until it carried on its venture in the water.