療傷處，成長階

又要重新適應新教會生活了。 不是我又要到外面生活， 而是要跟一班弟兄姊妹分堂 ...

今天早上最後一次在城北930am崇拜， 真是百般滋味在心頭。
在城北不是很多年日，但是在好幾年前很需要躲起來專心敬拜去安靜時，上帝卻帶我到這兒 ...
到今時今日， 我還是記得城北給我的好幾個印象 ... 其中，帶給我最多安慰的是每個禮拜余牧師的證道 ...
令我覺得講篇好又substance 的道當然好 ... 但是講篇能stir up令會眾渴慕更多的道更難 ...
but during those days which I needed God the most ... He brought me to a place which stirred up my appetite for God's words. God healed in His Truth.

A place where God blessed me with many lifelong fellowships ... partnership in His Kingdom.

The idea of going to the new church is still somewhat surreal ... even when we are 1 week away from starting new again ...

May God's Spirit lead our way as we worship and be servants of His use and for His Glory in this City.

I am ready to move on ... he is too ... God, have mercy upon us ...

In search of the keys

A analogy came to mind today at work ...

I feel like finding the right key for people that God brought to me everyday. I just have so much curiosity in seeing if He wants me to find the right set of keys to unlock the unspoken and unheard souls ... there are just times when God doesn't want me to find the set of keys for those hearts ... but ... He'd give me connection to hook people up with the right resource to go on with their search. At times, He will just give me the key to ask the exact perfect question to open another door ... yet ... there are times when He would let me feel stuck ...!

How can I not abandon myself in His Hands everyday in dealing with those who are severely and chronically wounded.

This game of finding the right set of keys is very fun ... yet ... very tiring ...

By the end of the day, you felt that you've exerted so much and wonder what's left in you to move on ...
that's when I go home and be healed and rested before I return to the battlefield the next morning.

Heart-work is hard work ...

As I was driving home today, I suddenly realized I could NEVER be able to this work on my own ...
It's because of the love from my families, the empathy of my husband, the unfailing support of the friendships that I am able to do this work. So basically, all of you are my colleagues in a way backing me up to walk on this path the God calls me to walk on ... I am loved and blessed (which most of the people I see everyday could never say and feel it ... but I DO).

If you remember ... pray for my strengeth and endurance :)

你慣了嗎?

自一個月前結婚後
聽得最多的問題 “你習慣結婚生活未呀？“
一個好深奧的問題
結果
我也custom made了一個答安回應 "慣緊"

當我用了很多年頭認識上帝所創造的我時
當我終於comfortable with my own being
結婚的念頭在我倆心中出現
又牽起new learnings
When you thought you finally pulled your life together as ONE
You realized you are actually on the path of merging of TWO and transform into ONE (the ONE that is different from the old) again.

This transformation will never get static, unless you choose to let it remains.

Now, Yes, I am not fully used to this newly wed life ...
But the hardest part is never learning about who do laundry, who take the garbage out ...
but learning to give up self in a loving intention to learn to merge with someone you love, and who love you dearly ...

I don't know if I am making any sense ...
but I realized I get asked by this philosophical questions so many times from many of my loving friends and folks.
So, when I answer 慣緊 ... it just mean that I take your probing in a serious way :)

Long returns

久違了的 blog, 一直好想寫，but it's just been so much that I wanted to write that a 'start' is always hard and got buried by many other errands.

Out of all changes in my life over the past year ...
with the transformation from LongLong to So-Long the greatest of all ...

So ya ... Miss Long is married to a very loving husband that God made specially for her :)